Friday 31 December 2010

关系与身份

关系

身份
可以说
是一样的东西罢


我还是要强调
我们之间

关系和身份


往往
很多时候
我都不是抱着
这个身份
而是
渴望另一个


我也知道
我所渴望的
其实
都是只个
幻想
都不会
成真


我就是
那么的
自私霸道
我只允许
我有这个想法
而你却不能
有或想

好多时候
当我在
悲伤
难过
绝望
不乐
我都会自然
找你来说
找你来使我开心
也许
你觉得
以你那个身份
是可以的
而我也相信是可以的


我不希望
这在继续下去
因为
我怕
总有一天
某些事情
会发生

这也是
我最不想看到
还是
想到的画面


你却说
你控制得了
自己


我不能吖
我还是

胡思乱想
也许
他说得对
惟有
这么做
我才能够
长大
成熟
成长


人的心
就是那么的
脆弱
经不起
小小
的折磨
就会在那儿
闹脾气
耍脾气


想着
想着
想着
想着
我觉得
还是
不要找你更多最好
虽说
他允许你这么做
但心里
还是
不愿意的阿

我也不希望
每当
有什么
事情发生
都想找你
因为
我不想
太过
依靠
你那么多

但愿
你能够
明白
我的
心情
谢谢

Thursday 30 December 2010

等待

等待
等待的时刻
永远都是最痛苦的
尤其
是你在
等待
某个人
某件事
的答案或答复
都是很不好受的

等待

你好想
一直的追问
一直的寻索
你所要找的答案

等待
也许
是件美好的事情
但也可以是最痛苦的时候
也许
你要我等待
是在考验着我
这我可不知道


我还是会等待着你
但愿
我的耐心
足于来到被你考验罢

等待
等待
等待
等待
等待
等待
等待
等待
等待



Wednesday 29 December 2010

抉择

自从
那天开始
到现在
我整个人都变了
也许是

也都是
我的问题吧
与你无关


我还是
不知道能够做些什么
我真的
好希望
我的抉择
不会伤害到任何人

我知道
这是不可能的
因为
无论什么
抉择都好
都会有人受到伤害
也许你会觉得
我很坏
即忍心
做出这么的抉择

这也不是
我想要的

为由
这么做
对我而言
才是最好的方法
因为我真的很辛苦
我快忍受不住了
我也不想
这么做
但愿
你能够理解我的心情

希望
你能够给我
冷静下

我好好的想想吧

Tuesday 28 December 2010

担心

担心
一个人
的心情
是没有人可以理解
你的那个理由

那个时候
自己再担心
什么都不知道
惟有等到
心情好点的时候
才慢慢的发觉
之前的我
在担心
你什么

那时的我就是
最傻乎乎的我

我和你

其实
很多时候
我都想和你说很多很多东西

开始的时候
我都只是和你信息而已
但好多时候
我还是想电话你
听听你的声音
但现在也很开心
因为能够听到你的声音更多了
为什么我那么想听吖
我自己也不是很清楚
也许
是你的笑声罢
还是你那爱讲话的性格
总让我觉得很舒服的和你聊天


就是因为他人的存在
导致许许多多的话题有了界限

也未必是他人的存在
也可以是
我们自己的人格
但还是没关系
也要不是因为他
也许就不会有现在的
你和我

也许
你不知道罢
我自己却觉得自己
好像
中了毒
每一天都要听听下
你的声音
就算
没的听
但还是会
要和你信息才可以
可能
我们都很忙
还是
没话题聊

我还是会去
你的面书
看看你写了什么
看看你的照片
自己才开心的


有了这一切
我也应该
觉得
满足
因为
要不是
那天
的决定
也不会
有现在

你和我

Monday 27 December 2010

今早的你和我

今早
你来了我家
默默的不出声
眼泪慢慢的掉下
看到你这样
那时的我
我不知能够做些什么
你就这样坐在那里
尽情地把你的泪水掉落在我家内

后来
才知道原来你对他动了情
也难怪你当初会说这么多的东西来反对我的
但他的一举一动却是这么的令人怀疑
希望你不要介意我这么说他
但我还是会问个清楚
究竟是不是

接着
你问否可以借个肩膀让你哭嘛
我顿时的吓了下
但我还是借给了你
哭着哭着
你就抱着我的手臂
继续得哭

后来
你问我可以让你咬一口嘛
而我也让你咬了一口
虽是有点点的痛
但我还是可以唉的过去
只要你没那么伤感
要我做什么来使你开心回
我都愿意
因为你也是在我不开心的时候
陪伴着我

但说着说着
你的情绪开始的恢复正常
开始的和我说笑
不再哭了
看见你这样我都开心回去了
=)

de day of 26.12.2010

today i was planning to have a nice rest
since my worker is working today
and also my day to rest
cause we swap it le...

but de day previous of it
where the night time reach
he suddenly tell me that he just can work from
9am till 3.30pm
and it was really ruining my rest day..
cause i really couples of weeks cant have a nice rest
arghhhh!!!!
my rest day just gone just a sentences of him..
so today i was late wake for church
and i was suppose to follow my friend car to church
but lucky he willing to wait me
so i just faster brush my teeth and wash up my face
and change my clothing and go

and because i follow car so i cant pick whether wanna home
or go anywhere cause from town to my house is kinda far
so i just follow them to shopping and tea section
so when i reach home is already 1.30pm
and i got lots of shirt need to wash
my dirty cloth is too many like a mountain already
after washing those 'mountain'
is was already 2.30pm
so no time for me to rest so i just choose to go to office early abit
reach office need to wait a customer return at 4pm
but i wait till 7pm also haven seen him back..
it was like what the hack..
you wanna extend 1 more day then just give me a call la
dont let me just sitting at the office and just waiting you back..
i still wanna rest want okay!!
when time reach 7pm
a friend call me to go to church have a dinner with them
so i just go and eat but who know..
everyone finish their dinner very early and just left me
cause those dishes left out lots of food
so call me come to finish it...
i was so angry that time cause they didnt plan to call me join their dinner
however is food cant finish only call me...
i really very stupid..like this become le the rubbish bin for them...
so after dinner i just went back for bath and join my 4 of my friends
for karaoke section for 3hours

i sang 10 song today:
最寂寞的时候
无乐不作
国境之南
背对背拥抱
劲歌金曲
有没有
慢慢等
洗刷刷
if i ain't got you
路边的野花不要采

Wednesday 22 December 2010

特别佳节

每逢的特别佳节
我都会相约一大班的朋友一起度过。。
即使没有一大班朋友的话
我都会至少找到一两个朋友的
就怎么都好都不会一个人过。。

但就在今年
一切都变了
清明一个人过 xD
劳动节还是要工作
苏丹生日也是工作
国庆日就去教会玩labuan amazing race
自己生日没人要帮我庆祝也没蛋糕可以吃
1 malaysia日工作
马来人过年还是工作
Haji节还要回总行开会
冬至也是要工作而且还没汤圆吃。。
就连看都没有。。
有都是面书上。。多到不得了
但看的不吃的!!
晚上还要像个火山爆发。。
真的有够不爽的!!
但还好昨晚是我和e的满月纪年
也没什么东西的。。
谁叫我和他都在那么远
加上昨晚下雨不方便聊电话。。。
但今年的平安夜也是我大哥的生日
也是不能和他庆祝。。=(
圣诞更不用说。。
早上还不知道要不要工作还是在家睡觉
晚上就要去教会聚会
之后有什么计划一瞧不知。。
听朋友说要唱歌但还没有任何消息。。
跨年更不用说。。
完全没有消息是生是死都不知道。。。

所以决定了。。
从今年平安夜开始到我回到西马之前
每逢佳节都要陪伴着月亮一起度过就好了。。


火山

好多时候
我都在问问我自己
到底我的火山几时才会爆发。。

每当我有这样的想法的时候
我都好希望自己像这个波拉波拉岛的死火山
那么漂亮平静
不想爆发了。。


但我现在却是像个睡火山
像这个富士的睡火山
睡觉的时候都是那么的可爱吖。。
就连自己都不知道几时会爆发
爆发了却希望附近的人都能够尽快地逃到安全的地方
真的希望在爆发的时候就只有自己来伤就好
不想附近的人因为我的爆发而受到严重的伤害。。

我最不想就是因为你
而变成了这个智利南部亚伊瑪的活火山
一直爆发多恐怖。。
可能有些人觉得很可爱的
因为他们都不在我身边才会这么说
但给那些比较靠近还是亲近我的
才觉得我有多恐怖多危险

Saturday 18 December 2010

没用?

最近不知道是不是被感染了。。
周遭的人都说自己没用。。
搞得我也有这种的想法。。
之前就已经和我的情人吵架了。。
接着就是到喵喵。。。
然后就是xiao k豪豪。。
后来就轮到小弟。。
现在轮到我了。。
在想想,我既然在这里有一个那么好的薪水。。
可是,花的却是和KL的一样。。。
还是没有存款的。。
可能是真的如人家所说的。。
薪水越高你的欲望也会跟着提高。。
搞得我一点点薪水就花这么一点点。。
薪水这么高就花得那么多。。
一时还不够用。。
如果是这样的话,那我直接在KL工作不是一样吗?
干吗还要来到那么远工作呢?
可是想着想着。。要不是我初到外地工作的话。。
可能就不会遇见到你们啊。。
要不是我在外地工作的话,
可能就不会有这样的我吖?
要不是我在外地工作的话,
我还会是一个单纯的长颈鹿吗?
还是早已死在战场上了。。
好多时候,我都在想。。
时间如果可以倒退的话?
我还是会选择在KL工作还是Labuan工作呢?
但我还是会选择在Labuan做。。
因为在这9个月半里我都在外面一个人生活
也自然而然的我在很多方面都有所成长。。
所以在此还是要向我所伤害到的人说声
对不起!!
因为我的欲望还是什么之类的都在不知不觉地情况下伤害到你了。。

Wednesday 15 December 2010

Emotional night


昨晚,我和你还聊得开开心心的。。
怎么知道就在9.35pm的时候
你就信息这么一封信息给我
“我最讨厌人隐瞒我和骗我了。。。你不要再跟我讲话了。。”
9.38pm
同样的信息来了。。
9.39pm
又是同样的信息。。。
你可知道我看了这封信息之后的第一个反应是什么吗?
很自然的我拿起我的maxis电话拨电话给你
可那时候你却block了我的号码使我拨不进。。
想必我就拿起我的digi号码在电话你。。。
还好通了可是你却不要接我的电话两次!!
那时,我真的以为你是来真的。。
害怕到我当时立刻电话我的老婆
告诉他这件事要他帮我电话你
看看你是不是不要接我的电话。。
哪知你真的又不接他的电话
可当时我真的很失望,伤心和生气我自己。。。
我一直好希望你是要发给其他人的而不是我。。。
之后我就先电话喵喵问问你有找过他吗?
而他也说没有。。
接着我又电话老师问问你会否找他吗。。
而他也说没有。。
之后我还是不放弃电话你。。
我就电话你的二堂哥拿你三堂哥的电话来联络你。。
当我电话到你三堂哥说要找你的时候,
我听到你们小小声的不懂说了什么。。
你就是不要接我的电话。。
还转告我说你锁着门了不想被人干扰。。
于是我只好退下让你静一静。。
当时我真的崩溃了。。我蹲在马路上在想着我到底有什么隐瞒还是骗了你的东西。。
可我想来想去都想不到。。
之后我再电话我的老婆说我无能为力了。。
而他叫我去冲个凉冷静自己一下。。
在冲着的时候,我还是在想我到底做错什么了吗?!?!
可我知道我什么都没有隐瞒和骗你啊。。
10.49pm
喵喵信息我写着
“ei。。。下次打来可以讲话不要那么严肃吗?说话放轻松点。。凯亿怎样了?
接着冲好了之后,
10.52pm
你信息我了写着
“哇哇~好像有很大的误会。。。糟糕。。。怎么样向你们解释好。。。”
当时我立刻电话你用我的maxis号码
再一次的我的号码还是拨不进。。
接着我就用digi号码电话你。。
果真通了而你也接了。。
当时你说真的是一场误会
而我当时真的真的非常的生气
还骂了你一句“很好玩是吗”
接着我就静静不想说什么了。。
我就盖了你的电话
去电话我的老婆
告诉他你回我信息了。。
而他也说没事就好啦。。
可我还是很生气。。
就在这个时候,
我突然好想哭。。就哭了出来。。
因为我不想老婆听到我的哭声。。
我也说我哭了就电话回你。。
我接着就进到屋里哭了一场。。哭过了以后
我再电话我的老婆说我今天好想早点睡不想说什么了。。。
再信息喵喵说没心情聊明天再说吧。。。
那时我的心情真的很差。。
接着,我也电话和信息你说
我也想睡觉了不想说那么多因为我真的没心情说了。。
接着你就一直信息向我道歉解释为什么会这样。。
看着看着。。我真的是没心情去理了。。
因为我真的不想再去想它了。。
很多人都说哭过了。心情会更好可是我依然是没变。。
依然很在意这件事情的发生。。
可是不知为什么。。
我以为哭过了就会好睡得。。
哪知我在床上滚来滚去到两点多还是睡不着。。
于是我上个网看看下过下时间。。
让自己在累一点就会好睡得。。
哪知还是一样。。滚来滚去到四点还是睡不着。。
就只是歇一歇到7点才睡得着可惜我8点就要醒了。。
就这样我8点10分就起来上班去了。。。

(过去了的东西就不要说了啦!!)
(哥都是因为在乎你才这么情绪化的。。。)


=P

Monday 13 December 2010

Recently i also dont know whats wrong with me?
feeling like hurting others without noticing it..
am my words hurt you?
am my action hurt u?
i really dont know when did i hurt you until you tell me that you are hurt by me..
hereby i really wanna say sorry to you..
SORRY

But for me...
im the person that very straight forward when talking so was my biggest weakness
to hurt you without noticing it..
but for what that i say or tell you also
i wanna let you know what am i thinking
cause i know you have the right to know it
and the reason i telling you this or that also hopping
you can solve this problem with me
while not just angry with it..
i know in the same time you might be very angry n unhappy
i already knew this would happen but i still wanna tell you
you know why?
is because im your hubby
i dont want any secret between us
so even if you wanna have my facebook or msn
id and password also can
im willing to summit it to you cause
you have the right to knew who am i chatting with
what did we chatting about it..
for what did i do i also hope you can do back to me
cause i also wanna know what did you thinking all the time
who did you chatting with
what did you chatting with it
so if you feel is okay to do it just tell me..
im ready for it...

(is my previous thought that haven been post until now...)

Sunday 12 December 2010

有人说处女座的我们就是这样的。。
那各位觉得我是不是这样的人呢?


越是在乎,越怕失去;越怕失去,越會遠離。

也許我永遠都不會和我最愛的人在一起,失去的痛苦,被誤解的傷,只有自己知道。

害怕被傷害,卻又不停地傷害自己。

我永遠膽怯,我永遠不夠好,我永遠不能帶給你我想要給你的。

那麼我只想在一個角落默默地看著你,關心你。

這便是處女座的我。永遠會放棄自己日思夜想最想要的東西。

渴望一個懷抱,給我釋放傷口,卻發現我無法忍受一個不愛的人。

只有一個人的世界,我才有機會看到真實的自己。

痛哭之後,無聲漫漫……

面對世人必須強顏歡笑,自卑、自傲又自尊的處女座無法忍受別人看見自己的脆弱。

可是倘若這時候別人的一句關懷的話語,她們便會崩潰,甚至痛哭失聲。

她們真的太需要關愛卻又害怕被關心。因為,她們艱難得維繫著為保護自己而構築的冰冷外表,是這麼地容易被擊破。

朋 友都說我是天生的演員,但他們不知道這是因為處女座從小到大都在演戲。隨時都在揣摩角色。當她們要騙別人時往往是先騙自己。無論是家人、朋友,總會保持著 距離。沒有人會看到處女座的真實世界,你們看到的只會是我們想要給你看到的一面,和不同的人在一起我們便會是不同的人,連我們自己也不知道自己到底是個什 麼樣的人。

處女座的我喜歡獨處,不合群,不愛交際。只是我們太累了,除了獨處的時候,我分分秒秒都在演戲,甚至在獨處的時候我也會無意識地演戲,因為那已經成了一種習慣。

所以對我們來說與別人相處事件很累的事,因為我們太容易被傷害,只要一個冷漠的眼神就能把我們殺死,所以我們習慣地用更冷的方式對待世界,那本非我們的性格。所以處女座往往不受人歡迎。但是誰能了解冰冷外表下的柔弱?

漸 漸地,我開始學習雙子、學習水瓶、學習天秤、學習天蝎、學習雙魚,有時候甚至我自己也不知道什麼時候就學習了身邊人的某種特質,處女座在12星座中最擅長 的就是學習。但是越是表演他們,越是讓我不認識我自己,有時候我在想自己到底應該是什麼樣的?因為演技太好,入戲太深。讓他們自己也不知道到底什麼是真 實。現在真實,還是過去更真實?還是都不真實?還是我真的本來就變了?

面對追求者,更是如此。他喜歡的是我的什麼?是真正的我嗎?還是只是我表演出來的那個自己?如果他看到了真實的我,是不是就不喜歡了?

處女座永遠糾結,永遠沒有安全感……

Wednesday 8 December 2010

Who am i?!?! @@

there was some time were i was wondering about myself...
WHO AM I?
for me...the way i know myself more is by
1.my reaction on different situation
2.when emergencies case appear the real you will appear...
3.i like to ask other opinion about what they knew about noah low...
(kinda fun also de...can try it... xD)
but still now the main problem is like
when you facing this person you are this character
but when you facing another person
you are another people...
i do bet everyone also having the same problem with me...
even thought is very little times...
or even just once..
sure got sometimes you will act as another person the
just like when you facing your
love one,one character
going to church,one character
friends,one character
family,one character
playing gang,one character...
this is for sure de...
so for now i really wanna know who am i...
can anyone who saw my post drop by a comment on who am i?
THANKS A LOT!!


Back again after holiday

Harlo there to my blog silent blog follower...
it has been some time i didnt update my blog cause of some problem...

recently also kinda a lot of things happening...
relationship problem
friendship problem
working problem
future problem

but above all
relationship and friendship is settle done...=D
working problem and future problem...
cause last week my mum call me up and asking me bout my plan on my studies
and because i asked hiko to check for me before i tell my bos bout it...
but before my mum call me up i also got call up to my KL youth pastor
for suggestion and she tell me that on march there is some short course on counseling
at penang the MBS either 1 whole day or 1 week course
so she suggest me to take it before i really wanna confirm on my studies in this course..
but of cause i also got tell my mum bout it
and she say is better for me to go for collegue 1st before i go for the MBS class...
so on pass sunday i need to went back to KK for the
Matta Fair dinner with the bos and others KK workers...
so the next morning while i went to headquartes to find bos to discuss bout it
he and his family went out for breakfast and his son school for some issue...
and i keep waiting from 9.45am until 10.30 like that
who know when his back...he keep busy until cant discuss it
plus i taking the 1.30pm the ferry back to Labuan so i need to take a move back to the terminal ferry for it..so what i gonna do is i just call my to my bos at the night time and tell him bout it
and he just reply me Oh...
but for me i really hope to get back to KL life soon maybe on January
before CNY so i can adjust back my "KL life" like the past...
so now really hopping i can get the answer from my bos soon by this 2 weeks la...
Haizz...

Wednesday 1 December 2010

my 1st day of december

today it was a memorable day for me...
wats happening le?
continue read my blog la... xD

today working time as normal
but someone added me in facebook..
chatting with him thru facebook then msn..=O
(dont angry ba dear dear..)

dont know whats wrong with my dear dear..
about 7 something i call for chatting
everything was so silent..
and i was wondering..
did i say wrong anything?
i also just wanna inform u that there are this kind of things happen only ma...
i think u have de right to know it de a...
but who know when i tell u this..u turn to silent le..
not speaking any single word..

the time i was so scare whats happening to u
so i just end up the call and choose to call up
your god sister and ask whats happening to u today..
but she was too busy so
i really out of ideas who can i find up..
until someone tell me that your facebook seems like got 'something'
so i just open up my laptop and look whats did u post on your wall..
when i was looking n listen de song u post...

i was so shock to look on it...
the most making me angry de
is u post a comment on your god sister there written like this
"
Look like i'll be single soon,haha.cheer^^"
that time i was
WTH
what did u mean by single soon?!?!?
means u wanna break with me?
that time i was FINE if u really wanna break with me..
im okay with it since is u started this kind of things...

so i call up to my 'brother'
and ask for some suggestion or asking why would he post this kind of things..
am i that bad or not good enough for u?
i was keep questioning myself whether am i really that bad nor good enough for u?
soon after the call i when try to call u up again
and u answer my call...
i straight away asking what did u mean by that
and u say u wrong post?!?!
i was totally stun by your answer..
i was trying to comfort myself saying
okay,maybe u were trying post for fun but what did u post on your god sister wall
i really cant take it as u post for fun or wrong post de..
cause is really IMPOSSIBLE
for u to wrong post or post for fun de a!!!

and finally u admit u got a little angry of me
that time my tears trying to drop at that moment...
i feel like crying loudly but suddenly
u turn to lively and keep on talking and talking
like nothing happen..that time i really wanna end up the call
and enter the house to have a big big cry.. ='(
maybe as they say laughter can influence people
so i just wipe it off my tears and keep happy with u like nothing happen..
that time i just out of my mind what am i doing?!?!
when we started our relationship i already say that
if there are any unhappy or unsastified things
i need u to tell me clearly so i know when i hurt your feeling
but u choose to keep it for your own and post such post on your god sister wall....
on that moment when i think back bout u lie on your own feeling i was super angry that time...
but who know i totally let your laughter control my feeling...
all of my anger gone just like that..
and continue to happy back with u..
before i sleep u say that u post a picture on my wall..
i was hoping that picture was some sorry post but
it was just a normal picture tagging me by im 'pokemon'
i was so damn like
WTF


de day of 30.11.2010

today is de last day of de month november for 2010
actually is nothing much happen till i reach home..

so today when i reach home
i just rang my dear dear for chatting 1st cause
i scare tonight might rain heavily so i rang early today
so as normal chatting until 8pm like that
we end up our call and have a nice bath and dinner 1st..
giving some private time for each other to work out 1st
before i call my dear dear before i sleep

so after bath and dinner
i start workout with my laptop to facebook 1st..=P
when i open up my facebook...
i saw one of my 'brother' unhappy
so i just started to chat with him
only knew that he facing a lot of troubles in christian life
and also his studies also..
while i trying to guild him more cheerful things
he will think back lots of his sad memory and
starting to saying some negative stuff
such as end up his life de...
as his 'brother' sure will stop him from thinking this kind of thought
and bring him back to cheerful thought..

while chatting and chatting..
the time has reach up to 11.21pm and i need to call my dear dear soon
cause normally our chatting sure more than 1hour
plus i dont wanna sleep to late if not
the next day sure not enough rest...
but chat chat har
i started to keep praising my self le...
my sickness started to appear le..(perasan sickness..)
end up i feel like my dear dear quite unhappy with me tonight
cause when we finish chatting and ready for rest
i send a good night message to my dear dear
and the reply that i got is kinda cool...
like-ya la ya la...go sleep la...night
it giving me a very cool feeling..like i let my dear dear angry le..
so we just end up our night with peace way?

Monday 29 November 2010

de day of 28.11.2010

today is was a tired n happy day for me
why i say so?

early in the morning of 7.08am
i woke up for church service at 8am
finish church at 10am cause today the speaker really talk too long le..
(sorry ya..i didnt mean that much..)
so after church service end
we(the youth) went for the breakfast
the labuan famous pan mee..=)
but who know when i just sat down n drank 2 bites of my tea ping
a customer call me up for renting a bike but i tell him
i will be late bout 2 or 3pm only reach office cause
i wanna have my breakfast and have a hair cut only went to office
but lucky he okay with me...
but
who know? there is another customer call me up for urgent renting 2bike
and i tell them i will be late for it
but he say he wanna bring de bike back to KK for 2days at 1.30pm ferry later
so i watch on my watch and think i might be losing this customer if i ignore them
so i just plan to to go office and let them 2bike
but when i reach de office there are another 2 more customer wanting to rent also
so i just rent it to them since got business who dont want do wo...LOL

so i just faster settle with them and plan to go back to meet back my friends
but then i receive a call from one of them and he tell me that
they already finish the breakfast and now going to the financial park for hair cut
so i just ask him to help me take away my pan mee for me
so i went to financial park and have my hair cut with them
cause there are also another 2 more friends who wanna cut their hair also..

but after my hair cut,washing and waxing my hair..
the girl who wash up my hair de ask me
whether im the one who cut at there before n gave my number to her friend want
cause the last time i went there and cut the girl who help me wash up my hair de
wanna take my contact number so i just gave her as friend la..
but now not just the previous girl want it but the other girls who work in the salon also
want my number but i also gave it to them la...
as a friends..really as a friends cause i now also have dear dear liao a
so how could i betray my dear dear de wo...=P

so i just went back to office and have my pan mee and just facebook until finish work
after work i just straight went for my dinner alone
labuan most famous bah kut teh...=P
after finishing it i just went back home for bath and online while my dear dear
bathing and dinner also...

so i just call my dear dear up for chatting
but the funny part start here...
cause my dear dear well talking in chinese but not in other language
so we start our conversation in chinese but half way my dear dear
suddenly talk in cantonese until the end..
it really kinda funky and enjoy also talking with my dear dear with language
that my dear dear not familiar with...=D
after finish chatting i just open the song 有没有by韦礼安
and i intro to my dear dear also cause
this song really touch my heart alot so my dear dear just suddenly
ask me to sang this song so i just sang in once the whole song
and i sang another one chinese christian song name 主你是我最爱
as our closing conversation..=P
our today chatting last for 2hour and 7minutes...=D
tata

Saturday 27 November 2010

韋禮安-有沒有(HitFM首播版)



I found this sound yesterday when i was playing facebook...
so i got to download this song into my laptop and my phone and keep listening for the whole night...it was too awesome and sang out from bottom of my heart..
so this is de song lyrics...

Turn off the radio
Turn on the lights you know
听见了谁的痛 在空气中
不断跳动 又那麽沈重
Turn on your favorite song
Turn off what I did wrong
听见了谁的伤 在窗户旁
安静的想 是什麽力量
你 有没有爱过我 有没有想过我
有没有 有没有 也会有一点心动 的时候
但是说不出口
有没有 后悔 还是只有我
Turn on the radio
Don't wanna care anymore
也许没有承诺 比较轻松
也不会有 沈重的枷锁
Turn off your favorite song
Just like there's nothing wrong
也许时间一长 就会遗忘
就真的当 是误会一场
你 有没有爱过我 有没有想过我
有没有 有没有 也会有一点心动 的时候
但是说不出口
有没有 后悔 还是只有我
你 有没有爱过我 有没有想过我
有没有 有没有 也会有一点心痛 的时候
但是说不出口
有没有 有没有 有没有 有没有~~
Turn on the radio

today 27.11.2010

Today really unlucky...
dont know why my broadband cant connect to internet..
it written wat airtime is expired la..those dont know wat they mean de...
so i bring my celcom broadband to de celcom center and ask wat happen with it...

so after some checking time..
they told me tat my broadband is over used for 5'gates'
so cant connect le..but the problem is not just me over used lo..
even de next door counter also over use every month
while hers nothing and i cant connect it?
WTH man..so i just upgrade my broadband to 10"gates"
cause i really use alot for download my movies...
so my payment for my broadband for every month increase
from rm98 to rm148 per month..==

during my office hour...
i was too boring and keep on refreshing on de facebook
and keep on searching for some funny video or post..
among those many post and video i found today..
i found out johnson change his name to 陈孽种
i was wondering wats happen so i open his profile and check on it wat happen to him
so it was like this de..he say his dad "遗弃" him
so he write 3notes bout his past..from the time he born until he enter to this 'world'
his main reason for writing it is to hope his family member
to look on it how he feel..
i really feel tat his past is kinda poor for him cause
when somethings happen then sure kena 家法侍候or kena scold...
watching his story i feel 心酸and怜悯him fo having 'such' past..
so for his brighter future..
i will keep praying of him and others else who have same story like him
so if anyone who have any others prayer request the can just comment on my c-box
or just inbox me on my facebook if for privacy...

Friday 26 November 2010

de day of 26.11.2010

Early in de morning of 7am
i already woke up for office to send a document back to KK by de 1st trip ferry back to KK
it was like Oh My Goodness...im very tired, i wanna sleep more!!
cause normally i also wake up at 8.20am like tat only went for work..but today...==

At the office today...no customer..boring..
and very frustrated of many many things...
Working, Studies, and relationship...
so i just call up to my best listener- rachel low(my sister)
for cry out...

after bout 45min of phone call
we end up our conversation and i continue up
with my dear dear another phone call...XD
we chat bout 90min plus...

during de nite time,i was just playing dota ai map
for fun cause nothing to do while waiting for my dear dear
back home,dinner and have a nice bath..XP
only phone up for chatting again...
but after finish everythings
when i prepare to phone up my dear dear
hiko durian phone me up and chat..
both of us chat alot of things inside...including her n mine stuff...
during our conversation...
theres alot of funny story in it..
we sang song, listen song..hahahaa
but night time really pass fast..
we chat bout 1hour and 17mins like tat...

after phone call with her
i saw a message from my 'brother' and i phone call him for bout 10mins
cause i got somethings important tat he need to know..
after phone calling him..
finally is time for me to call up my dear dear le...
but too bad the time is late le..
is bout 12.30am like tat
and i was very tired so we just chat for awhile and say good night to each other le..

Thursday 25 November 2010

《千与千寻的神隐》动画主题曲あの日の川へ PIANO 钢琴



today wake up early in the morning and went to office and open up my laptop to facebook 1st...=P
and i found out this video clip...
the moment i play this video...the melody makes me flash back my past a lot of very touching memory...
think back for some moment..my tears almost drop down cause of too many touching memory flashing back...
so here to share it whether it can help up YOU all to think back some touching memory...=D

De day of 25.11.2010

今天一早,起床了不到5分钟,我就收到我的爱人的简讯。。
好甜蜜噢。。一早起来就看到,来自自己的爱人讯息过来。。
接着,就因为我还在等着我的工人来载我所以我就趁这个时间拨电话给我的爱人聊几句。。
就因为前一晚我不方便拨电话因为下着一场倾盆大雨,
怕会干扰到我们的对话,所以前一晚我们都只是在讯息而已。。
到了公司,各自就忙着自己的东西。。可是,我们还是透过面子书来聊天。。
到了放工的时候,我就打包了我喜欢的牛肉汉堡两个来当我的晚餐。
就一般来说,我得吃下三个才算饱可是也许是今天在公司不断的喝水,
导致我都有点饱饱的。。就回到家了,冲个凉就去教会去了。。
参加那个祷告会。。

祷告会结束了,就得讯息下我的爱人阿。。
因为刚好也是8点结束阿。。我们也都结束了自己各自的活动。。
到家之后,我就先叫我的爱人先吃个晚饭冲个好凉,再等我的电话。。
看到天气是那么的美,想必不会下雨吧。。
哪儿知道,正当我准备要拨电话的时候。。
天色却下起了一场非常大的雨。。。
心想完蛋了。。前天已经没拨电话了。。不要再这样吧。。。
可是,也就在这个时候,我的工人的朋友驾了辆车来。。
我就想到借用他的车里面来讲电话,至少都没在外面的强大雨声来到干扰。。
所以我就进了车,开始我们的对话了。。

聊下聊下,我们几乎都聊了45分钟左右吧。。
接着,车主上了车子说要去找他的朋友以下,问我要不要跟着兜兜风。。
我就想,没问题啊。。既然我都是聊我的电话,他找他的朋友。。
各做各的,一路途上,他的驾驶开始有点乱了,因为之前就喝了些酒啊。。。。
几乎都要撞上马路旁的东西。。
吓的我的对话都不能集中。。

可是还好的是我们平安的到达了。。
接着,他就下车找他的朋友下下。。我也一个人逗留在车内继续我的电话。。
聊着聊着,突然。。。。
马路上的街灯停电了。。搞得整条街都处于一片黑暗。。
吓的我,急忙开完车内所有的灯,也因为我们停在一条桥上,
而那条桥上经过的车更是少而又少。。几乎都不会见到有车的。。

突然,我的朋友回来了。。就叫我驾车回家去了。。。
哪知道,不是那桥的附近没点而已,就连我家都没电。。
我猜测就也许整个纳闽岛都没电吧。。(因该啦。。)
因为都不是第一次停电了阿。。平均每个月都会停电一次。。
还好,大约十分钟后。。电源恢复了。。
接着,我又再次的拨电话给
我的爱人继续的聊多一会。。
聊下聊下,时间都到了12点半左右了。。
所以我就先关下电话,要上床去睡觉了。。

可是,就在睡觉前,我发了简讯给我的干弟弟和干妹妹们各一封晚安的讯息。。
可是,有一封讯息看了,我的确是有点点生气。。
就想着想着。。我都睡着了。。哈哈哈

Tuesday 23 November 2010

Yahoo...

on de time of 1.05pm
i got a message from my darling..
it written like this...
"Gosh...i get 41 correct,only 1more i will pass.wuwu,now is my third time le"
which means my darling fail the test le...
i was so shock to saw this message cause
my darling say yesterday tell me tat sure will pass de but de result out was
41/50
left out 1point then can pass le...
aiyoyo...de main point is my darling test le 2 time also failed le,
even thought i dont know de previous mark
but my darling really did de best for it le...but still failed...
of cause as for me sure need to make my darling happy back de la..
but after messaging with my darling
my darling say wanna retake de exam straight again..
but de problem is my darling haven eat anything in de morning
but just a cup of milo only...
how can my darling stand for it...morning 7am wake then prepare to got for exam le..
until after 1.05pm finish exam...but now going for third time...

so when de time reach 1.41pm
i got a message from my darling again it written like this
"Havent,morning till now one thing also havent eat.pass already,44.HAHA"
is just like
"WOW"
my darling pass already le...just in another 36minutes..
my darling really very very pro le...
not losing to self confident and retake the 3rd time of it..
and pass it finally...
i was very very happy to saw this message appear in my phone...
just cant believe that in 36minutes then my darling pass de exam le..
it was like so fast...
but here i really very happy to listen bout it...

and now just left out my brother english paper today...
he haven reply me a single message...still worrying for him...
but hopping when de message come it was written like
"gor, today exam still got little headache le...but i think can gua.."
hopping is like this la...
haha...

finally he reply me le...
he say lucky today english paper still okay..he think he can pass for his english...
is not that hard as he think...
thank God lo...both of them also happy with their result...

THE END

24.11.2010

today was my darling and my 7th brother having their big exam...
my darling having the law exam of the car learning
while my 7th brother is having his spm retake exam for english paper today..

both of this exam also important for them
cause if my darling fail le then my dear dear cant continue learning car practical
while if my brother fail his english paper
it would be a big problem for him if he wanna continue his studies or wat..
but today were his 2nd day of his spm retake cause
yesterday was his BM paper and he aledi gonna blow of his mind of thinking de answer
cause long time didnt touch BM le...sure forgot le many many things de...
but here hopping him can do up his best in de paper and not giving himself too much stress la..
so do my darling...dont make yourself too stress ya..just try up ur best
and i will always support you de...just remember tat you always got a hubby
who love you and support you always de...=D
all the best ya darling in your law exam
so do my brother in his english paper today..

talking back to my working today...
just few minutes ago de tourism malaysia just come to my office and asking bout de license
cause they say we still haven got approve letter from the tourism center
so still consider under no license...haha
but everythings gonna go smooth cause we just lack out of some forms haven submit to them only but really after submit they wont find us again for any problem la...=D

Recent case of mine...

Yesterday was my happy day but also some sad or angry case happening again...
making my emotional dont know how to respond also...

kindly for my blog reader, i do have a new partner for my relationship...
(yes,i finally got mine...Lol)
u asking me who is this person?
i also not too sure le...haha
but if U really wanna know who is this person then ask me privately..
MAYBE i will tell u how is this person..(maybe yet la..)
and also cause of this person(another want)
helping us together..dont know wanna thx him or not...
cause his the one who ask me to chase on this person
and i really go and ask this person whether accept me anot
and this person reply me depends on u lo...
cause i also got a little feeling on u but i need to discover more abit...i wanna slowly find ma..
(kinda true also de...who will know whether this partner of yours are good inside de heart n outside de heart? who know maybe from wat u see is outward good de but inward just like a devil...so try to discover slowly while u looking for ur exact partner...)

is kinda nice date for me to remember yesterday also...cause it was 22.11.10
but then when i was finish work and home tat time..
my worker started to talk about something tat would make me angry
and lose my mood..cause dao me also ate a little bit then dont want eat le...
cause after watching some picture, it make me very angry!!!
but lucky my partner was there to cheer me up..

but after cheering me up...
a 'brother' of mine kinda making me a little piss off le..(jz a little la..)
cause of someone...but i not gonna tell here...=P
but everything end up with a good ending la...we settle it in peace way for me
but for him im not too sure la...
cause i know recently i also making my 'brother' very angry
and very worrying for my stuff...
(here say sorry la di...gor gor didnt meant to hurt u n making u keep worrying me de...)

so for de whole night i was just keep watching cartoon like digimon xros wars..
(de latest version de...now until episod 12 le..Lol)
i was waiting n waiting for my darling to free cause my darling was at frenz house
watching horror movies and helping god sister to prepare somethings...
ngam ngam while waiting n waiting..time reach till 12am le
so i pick up my phone n plan to call my 'sister' up to wish her harppi burfday
but very cham de...her phone out of battery le...so i was waiting bout few minutes
for letting her charge up her phone..
so after waiting some time le...she call me up and we chat le bout 53min le...
talking bout many many things but mostly also talking bout me de...==
cause i just plan to wish her up thats all le...
but she was asking me bout my facebook wall de post...
so talk talk har den say le many many things out le...
(so hopping her can help me keep out my secret la...)
after we end our call..
i need to call up my darling for some chit chat
but tat time was aledi 12.53 le...and i kinda tired le...
but i got alot of things wanna tell my darling..
so end up i just called n greeted good night to my darling
cause really very tired n sleepy le..

so thats all for 22.11.2010..^^V

Sunday 21 November 2010

holiday..=D

today i choose to close de shop and dont want to open it even thought got people wanna rent a not cause i really didnt close on sunday n have a nice rest le...

but who know today morning around 11am really got 2 customer call me up n wanna rent 2 bike but i refused it cause scare i cant control my self to online at office again n make dao myself cant rest again...

so i just reject them go back home after breakfast and have a simple cold water bath cause of weather hot..and straight online for 10minutes like that then started to sleep from 1.30pm till 4pm wake up for basketball cause really long long time didnt play le since at labuan for 7months but just play le 2 times including today de...

today i just play le 4rounds of 7balls per match also make me super exhausting n cant play anymore le...who call me didnt do any sports le meh...sure stamina geting weaker n weaker de la..so after the basketball section i went for my dinner at Tamu de bah kut teh alone and went back home for bath and now at frenz house to watch up badminton final but end up online le...haha

so now im going to offline le la...cause need home le...tata n nite nite le la...=D

Thursday 18 November 2010

Knewing a new frenz on 18.11.2010

today is my day back to labuan after meeting at KK for 1 day..

after reaching to de ferry station...i reach there early 1hour
so that 1 hour i use it for facebook n download my anime..
dont know why..my broadband speed is very fast...
i got to download finish 2 episod of my anime show..
but too bad de day before that i didnt charge well my laptop...
so when i open it, it just left 65%..
but during this period..i got to meet up a new friend name of elfvin goh..
(wat a special n nice name..i kinda like it also...)
so i just gave him my number n he also gave me his number so we can chat more in de phone
he born on 1993 so which means this year taking spm
but he drop his studies n learn make up after he drop it
even thought i dont know why he did this but is his own choice...
but...but...he plan to retake it next year de spm exam
after his makeup exam on next year february...
hopping he can pass it so do his spm also la...

i feel very funny n comfortable to chatting with him..
dont know izit cause of his character very 天真..
plus his english grammar always got wrong word de almost every 2 or 3 message..
for me, i like correct peoples grammar..dont know why also...
u can imagine that when someone type wrong word in a sentences
it can cause de sentences to be very funny..such as
is my 'pressure' to have u as my teacher..it should be pleasure not pressure..
so u can imagine that this guy is really a funny guy to chat with
cause he really make me feel very funny..=D
(if u saw this please dont angry ya...i didnt mean to laugh at u de...just feel funny when saw ur msg got wrong grammar only..)


Wednesday 17 November 2010

1 day trip to Kota Kinabalu

yesterday early in the morning i woke up at 8.45am n had my bath those preparation
after it i started to packing up my bags for KK trip in de afternoon at 1pm

while in de ferry of 3hours half of journey...i just kept sleeping n sleeping only
cause of too tired plus not enough sleep recently...
so i reach KK around 4.15pm
n my 2nd brother n his wife come n pick me up
to 1 Borneo shopping center for some simple shopping
n guess wat...so coincidence that yesterday guang liang
had a mini concert at here also..but too bad i cant attend n watch it
cause of having dinner n meeting with my brother n the big bos
bout the company future program..

during de meeting n dinner...
my bos kept drinking of de liquor n so do us
but i didnt drink much cause dont like de taste of it...
cause is spicy de...bout 46% of alcohol...
but who know when we finish meeting..
my bos wife came to joined us and we started to drink more le
cause she like to 'gan bei' with us...
so after tat i think i drank up le bout 4 cups of liquor de i total...

but dunoe why...everytime got meeting de...
my eye for sure will try to drop some tears de..
n those tears also dropping when my brother gave advice to me...
while my bos or bos wife giving advice tat time i wont drop any tears...
tats strange de...haha but who cares...=D

Tuesday 16 November 2010

finally settle

Today i finally got to settle all of my love letter le...
really finally le...but kinda sad today morning
cause my frenz help me to deal with de police yesterday night
whether it can be more cheaper anot compare to pay rm600
but who know he say can...settle le...
just tomorrow morning look for this police then okie le...
but this morning when i enter police station and pay the 'love letters'
the police say no more discount already
cause all de discount can only deal before 5th of every month only...
that time i was like to say
"WTF"
we not have a deal le meh?
how come now you say like this de?
but lucky i prepare le rm600 enough for it cause scare it suddenly doesnt happen
and it really doesnt happen to me lo...
but before today i go pay it
yesterday night my frenz call me up n say the police got de 'waren tangkap'
n they looking for me cause i late for de payment..
when he tell me this i really very scare they would come n find me de..
but lucky my frenz help me say good word say tat tomorrow i will pay for it...
really thanks him alot even thought i cant get de discount for it but....hahahaa

and today is my little brother-leong kai yik birthday...
too bad he today not feeling very well so resting at house for the whole morning until 5pm
only move to time square for celebration with his friends...
i really hope i can attend it n celebrate with him
cause i haven celebrate with any of my 'brothers' before de...
how bad am i...

but lucky he was very happy for his birthday celebration with his frenz
after pass le his big day i call him up for some chatting
cause not feeling to happy after got cheat by person that i trusted alot de...
but after some chatting with him i feel more happier le
cause i got share my story n he get some happy story to make me happy back...
so after chat le then i went up to bed lo..=D

Monday 15 November 2010

回想以前的我来比较现在的我

最近,我都有和几位的朋友们都在聊电话。
通过对话中,
我发觉到自己不再是以前的noah low了。。。
我已经变了另一个人了。。变成noah lee了。。
哈哈哈。。好冷哦。。。
可是,我的的确确变了很多咯。。

就从我的性格来说起。。
以前的我,
1。耐心可是非常的忍的。。
就每次都抱着‘忍一时风平浪静,退一步海阔天空’
就忍忍下就练出来了阿。。
以前的我,
2。个性总是爱笑个不停。。
就笑口常开身体好啊。。
以前的我,
3。就每天都要运动运动下才行的。。
就运动有助于身体保持健康阿。。
以前的我,
4。还蛮喜欢跟别人聊天的。。
希望别人可以注意和关心我多一点。。


可是,
现在的我,
1。动不动,就生气了。。
不知是不是因为工作和环境的缘故吧。。
现在的我,
2。总是哭笑不得。。
笑声渐渐从我而去,而哭声却常常找我。。
也许是寂寞吧。。
现在的我,
3。懒惰到不得了。。
因为面对着工作的缘故几乎一星期都有7天在工作不休。。
不像总公司,每个礼拜和公共假期都是休息
而我却天天都要开店来到提高自己的行销。。
现在的我,
4。依然是喜欢和别人聊天。。
可是就不再是要别人注意和关心了。。
而是太过的寂寞了,希望有人可以陪陪我聊天阿。

外表的话,
1。体重就有所提高,
因为每天都在吃吃喝喝,没有运动阿。。
自然而然就增重了阿。。
2。体高也当然随着体重增高了。。
这回就不知为什么啦。。就自己也蛮喜欢再长高的。。
3。外观
也就随着朋友们给的称赞。。
就对自己越有信心阿。。(我不是在自赞哦!!)

就想着想着。。。
以前的我,可是多莫的乐观呀
比起现在的我却那么的。。。。。。。。。。
好想好想变回以前的noah low叻。。



盧廣仲-最寂寞的時候 MV

Recently i keep listening this song cause this song really good to express my feeling everyday.
i think is not just me,
i think is most of the people also cause even they can busying everyday but still inside their heart are still empty de..
so i do hope everyone can find out their own 目标。。

Friday 12 November 2010

the reason of ponteng...=D

『ponteng的借口』

by a friend of mine at facebook notes where i saw it accidently i feel is funny so share share har...

‎1.最體面的理由:"Saya takut la cikgu! Terlalu handsome, manyak perempuan tengok saya"

2.最實事求是的理由:"Cikgu terlalu hodoh! Saya tak tahan tengok!"...

3.最拍馬屁的理由:"Cikgu terlalu cantik~~~ Saya takut saya tak boleh tahan juga..."

4.最無聊的理由:"Kawan sebelah maja tak mau cakap dengan saya"

5.最是理由的理由:"Kawan saya belanja makan...Bayar hutang..Cikgu mau saya pinjam kasi u?"

6.最Cheap的理由:"Saya tolong nenek saya pindah rumah"

7.最蠻橫的理由:"Tak syok! Tarak feel!"

8.最無奈的理由:"Stokin saya baru cuci semalam..belum kering..tak pakai pigi sekolah tak boleh....."

9.最丟面子的理由:"Tadi nampak leng lui di atas jalan...Tak nampak jalan dan jatuh dalam longkang....."

10.最受挫折的理由:"Girlfren tak mau saya.... Cikgu....!! saya manyak sakit hati!!!" (抱着老师狂哭,老师呆着):'

11.最胡說八道的理由:"Ayah mau kahwin dengan emak sekali lagi..."

12.最侮辱教育部的理由:"Kerusi di sekolah sangat cheap! Saya tak boleh tidur dengan baik! "

13.最進步的理由:"Saya terkutip 1 ringgit..cari satu hari baru nampak seorang polis..."

14.最令人同情的理由:"Saya sesat jalan...kemudian kena rompak...kena hantam cukup cukup...kemudian seorang kata dia Gay...."

15.最病態的理由:"Saya tak boleh keluar rumah pada 1,13,21, dan 28 setiap bulan.."

16.最挨不著邊的理由:"Aunti sebelah rumah pigi hospital lahir anak.."

17.最變態的理由:"aiyoo Cikgu,...saya setiap bulan 'itu' pun datang sekali lla malunye....hehe..cikgu jahat oo~" (狂抛眉眼,老师呕!)

18.最抽象的理由:"saya nampak seekor harimau sedang main chess dengan Mike Tyson, jadi saya pun tengok tengok tengok...."

19.最幸福的理由:"tadi datang sekolah manyak leng lui kacau saya "

20.最可恥的理由:"Breakfes makan terlalu banyak! Tak boleh jalan.."

21.最遭罪的理由:"Tadi pigi tandas tak ada toilet paper, tunggu dalam sana sehingga Emak balik.."

22.最天真的理由:"Semalam saya kira bintang ...."

23.最關心自己的理由:"Semalam saya tidur sangat lewat, takut tak cukup rehat, jadi saya tidur banyak sikit hari ini"

24.最大無謂的理由:"Hari ini saya mau pigi mogok dengan PAS di KLCC....jXBXX BN naik harga minyak lagi!!!

25.最諷刺宗教的理由:"Saya bawa Father pigi jumpa bomoh..dia kata ada hantu kacau church dia"

Thursday 11 November 2010

近况的我

其实,就在我这几天的业务行销都非常的差。。
不知什么原因,自从马来人过年之后,纳闽岛的旅游业都降低的很多。。
别说我的摩托生意,
就连我隔壁的租车生意都降低了很多。。
haizz。。公司的东西就不多说了拉。。

说说我的生活吧。。xD
前一阵子,都不知道干什么。。
突突然然,
我好怀念我在吉隆坡的家人和朋友们。。
每一晚都好想打电话给他们聊聊天,
可是又不知道聊些什么,
要不然就是怕他们不得空,
要忙这忙那的。。干扰到他们忙着就不好啦。。。

可是就在最近,
我有机会与我的妹妹聊起电话来了。。
(好久没聊的呢。。)
就听她说了我妈最近都帮我在找着学院,
因为有一段时间我好像去进修我的辅导能力。。
因为我在晚上的时候,
都会开导我朋友们的感情问题。
到如今,我还算是蛮成功的。
因为能够帮他们解决掉他们的烦恼。
我还记得有一次当我帮了我的朋友后,
他倒过来问我为什么以我这个没有任何恋爱经验的人,
既然可以帮助到他解开他的烦恼。。
当时,我的不知所措。
因为我都是依我所学到,看到,听到的资讯来帮助他们而已。。
所以,到现在我都还蛮想回到学院来到进修我的辅导能力,
可是,我问题就在我的SPM成绩才拿到3个CREDIT,
根本就不够资格来到录取进任何的学院。。。
所以到现在,我都还蛮操心这件事的。。
就希望能够尽快地有个出路吧。。。

Thursday 4 November 2010

No expression-> Angry-> Happy

actually yesterday also nothing much happen de cause is just a normal day for me again...

cause yesterday was my salary got paid n so do my worker also..
but when he get his paid...he then suddenly got angry n asking me
why his paid is just that little n not that amount de..

so i just explain to him then he okie with it already but after awhile more
he came back to me n asking me agian why is it like this n not like that de..
so for his sake i had to explained it again until he understood..but somehow he dont like
it anyway n asking me for bos number...i been thinking for a moment
whether wanna gave him anot...but after thinking i just gave it to him..

after he calling my bos, my bos call me asking wat happen..
so i just simple explain it to my bos n he okie with it
BUT
after awhile more my bos calling me again asking what really going on actually
so i had to explain to him in details..
this story goes like this..
on the 1st day my new worker enter to this company,
he checking all those working environment those blah blah blah la...
then after seeing it then he ask me those salary,working hour,working days..
n i explain it to him...starting month your paid is like this...
but he refuse it n i try to gave him another price BUT i said i had to dicuss it with the big bos
whether is this paid suitable for him n my big bos say cant like this de..
so after that my bos asked me to settle it my own way..

so after thinking n thinking how to solve it..
(by the way,my worker requesting for more rm200 for his paid)
so i decided to do it like this..
so after finish working i go da bao my favourite dinner thats was
3 burger daging biasa..=P

after reaching home,
i tried to solve it by using the solution that i planed earlier de which is
i take out rm200 from my paid each month for him as OUR house expenses like those
foods,cleaning item those la...which can share together de
N
he say like this mai good lo..can reduced his burden more lo...
no need to frustrated for this kind of things next time le..
even thought im 'not so' willing to do it but for the sake of both goods
i choose it this way...

so happy when i heard that he agree with my way...^^

Tuesday 2 November 2010

Devali is coming soon!!

So at de terminal ferry which means my office there came in le 4 indian UMS students with a good look n good body sharp to de next counter for some chit chat..

What they chat I dunoe la…but after they chat le then they start doing de ‘columms’

What is ‘columms’ le? It represent light for them n represent decoration for others race…that’s what I know la…haha

so i will keep posting de 1st step until it success cz is de 1st time i saw indian doing this from starting til it end...i love this alot during devali cz is really very nice...

1.the master piece of it before it create
2.starting to sketch the phoenix on the floor


3.finish sketching le..

4.prepare the coloured rice for it..
5.started their 'colouring' on the phoenix6.finish the main side then now the side wan...the feathers...7.starting the body part8.getting to finish it...9.sprinkle the silver dust so it look more shinny when sunlight shine upon it...10.finally everythings done...

so those it touched your heart after seeing it? 4 of them
started to sketch the phoenix
from10am n colour the phoenix until 2pm...kinda fast work also de...^^